Sunday, July 21

County Fair

Did the county fair tonight. Man, I'm beat. It was hotter than hell out there. The kid had a great time. It was the same drill this year. Paid 10 bucks to get in, he could ride all the rides he wanted to. They wanted 10 bucks for the baby too, if she was going to ride rides, I said screw that. She is only 1 so, she don't know what the hell is going on. Maybe in a couple years.

Had my corn dog. It sucked. Tried 1 from two different places. They both sucked. The demolition derby was crap. They only had 4 cars running and the track for them was about as big as my back yard. What a rip. Man, I'm glad I didn't have to pay extra to see that farce. I would have demanded my money back.

Walking around that fair really did me in. I was tired, hot and not in a very good mood. I put a smile on my face though for the kid and the lady. This was the little baby's first carnival. I think she had a fun time, as far as baby's go I guess. I did see a New York pizza stand, was gonna try that, but I was full.

Went and seen a regular family doc last week, I have Diabetes. He looked at my family history and told me it was only a matter of time. I was going to get it 100 % sooner or later. So, it's not the cancer that gave it to me. He told me the regular stuff, gotta loose weight, watch what I eat, no sugar drinks...... Well, I ain't been drinking sugar drinks for about 3 weeks now. Only a couple every now and then. I gotta take pills and check my blood sugar 3-4 times a week now. Oh well. He did say by blood pressure was excellent.

I think cutting out the regular soda will work in the weight dept. Don't know, we will see. Went to the flea market today too. Didn't find crap. I told the lady I wanted to be on the road by 9:30. I wanted to get there as they opened. Then I heard this lady saying that she had been there since 5, ha! Man, there ain't nothing at a dam flea market that I want bad enough that's gonna make me drag my ass out of bad at 5 to be there, screw that. I did see a guy selling a Genisis for 15 bucks with a few games. I would have got it but he didn't have any controllers. On the way to the flea market we past at least 5-6 yard sales. Should have stopped at those instead. I think next Sat, that's what we will do, screw that dam flea market. All they have is over priced junk.

Feeling ok tonight, normal. Tried to lay down and get some sleep, but I drank a diet Mt Dew a few hours ago.....didn't realize what I was doing, so I'm up now. Don't feel like working either. I should have tried that New York pizza stand. Crap.

NEVER GIVE UP!!!!!! NEVER SURRENDER!!!!!!

Monday, July 15

Blood Sugar Problem

I have a blood sugar problem. It's high. Went in last week after fasting and it was 250. The normal is around 100. I asked the Doc if I have Diabetes and he said No, but I'm on the way. He said I have to get my blood sugar under control. He asked me if I have a family doctor and I said no. Never had any use for one. I never had nothing wrong with me, besides a cold every now and then, it's when I got this cancer is when I came to see the Doc.

Well, he set me up with an appointment with a family Doc here in town. I guess he is going to treat me for my blood sugar. I have been drinking diet soda and sugar free drinks since last Tuesday. I really like diet Mt. Dew, as far as anything else I have tried Coke Zero and it's ok. Been kinda watching what I eat as well.  No more sugar cereal in the morning, been eating Special K. I love that stuff anyways with no sugar on it. The Doc also said I need to loose some weight, I'll talk that over with my regular cancer Doc first. I think just cutting out the sugar drinks is going to make me loose some pounds. I was drinking about 4-5 cans a day. Now I'm drinking diet soda and more ice water. I should cut the soda out all together, but I really like flavored drinks.

Found a few SNES carts at the Goodwill a few days ago and a few PS2 games.I think there is somebody else in this town collecting as well, Goodwill looked pretty picked over. Nothing but sports titles. Went to a few thrift stores today, nothing. I'm gonna have to hit the stores up in the city when we go. This little town really don't have that many thrift, Goodwills. We have 1 Goodwill and 2 thrift stores that I am aware of and 2 pawn shops. I hit one pawn shop the other day, they had alot of PS3 and PS2 titles along with X-Box and X-Box 360 but they wanted 5 bucks each. I ain't paying that for a game. Only if I really want it, or it's rare and I can flip it fast. Have not seen anything on Craigslist for video games in my town either. I may see if the lady wants to hit a few yard sales on Friday.

Well, the county fair starts tonight. We are not going tonight. It's the first night and I don't really feel like dealing with a large crowd. Besides, it's hotter than hell out there right now. I told the lady and the kid we would probably go tomorrow night or the day after. It's up to how the lady feels. We are going though, sooner or later. I gotta get my yearly fair corn dog. I missed out on it last year. The kid is pretty excited. If they follow the same plan like last year, we just pay a ten spot to get in each and the kid gets a hand stamp and can ride all the rides he wants, as many times as well. I wonder how much they are going to charge for the baby. I'm gonna fall over if they charge 10 for her....LOL.

The Chemo drugs are hitting me hard again. I slept most of the night Saturday night, all day Sunday, and all night Sunday night. I slept for 36 hours I think. Man I was tired. The only reason I got up today when I did is the lady came in and said a hose on the pool had sprung a leak and was spraying water into the air. Went out there and sure enough, it was spraying in the air...LOL. Boy, I'm glad I had an extra hose. That extra one had been here since we got the house, I had no idea if it had a hole in it or not. Swapped it out, no leaks. Sweet. I'm glad. I really didn't feel like going to get another one, let alone deal with the asshole that owns the local pool store. That's a story for another post.

Well, that's where I stand. I have a blood sugar problem, but I feel alright. Tired, but normal. I go see the family doc in a few days and I will find out what he wants me to do and how he's gong to treat me. I hope it's just taking pills. I really don't want to have to take daily shots again. I'm fighting and still here. Ready to do anything to beat this beast!

NEVER GIVE UP!!!!!!  NEVER SURRENDER!!!!!!!

Wednesday, July 10

Did Chemo Yesterday

The title says it. I went in. Wasn't too bad. Didn't take that long either. My regular Doc is on vacation. So I had another guy. Older. The nurse told me that he has been a cancer Doc for 30 years, so that's cool. He knows what he is doing.....I hope anyways.

They took my blood to test it, like they always do. They have to see if my platelet count is up enough for my treatment. Well, the Doc came in and said I have a problem with my blood sugar. It was way too high. He said a normal level is around 100, mine was 500!!!! Dam. I told him that I do drink alot of sugary drinks and he said that would affect my blood sugar big time. He wants me to come back in on Friday after I have fasted. Not eat or drank anything for awhile. This could be caused by the chemo drugs they are giving me as well he also told me. We will see.

So, I have not had any soda since. Been drinking ice water and diet powerade. I hate diet soda but now I have no choice. I do not want this blood sugar problem to get in the way of my treatment, so no sugar drinks no more. I think after a couple weeks I'll get used to diet soda and diet drinks, I'm not looking forward to those 2 weeks though. I love having an ice cold Coke with my food, especially pizza, oh well. That's part of getting older I guess. I just hope I continue to get older......LOL, if you know what I mean.

I feel ok. Normal I would say. I'm tired as hell, like always. I think my taste buds are normal, I did have a nasty taste when I had a couple pickles with my meal a couple days ago. I love having pickles with my meals. My dad does too, he got me started on it. If it's just pickles affected that's way cool. I can live with that. Gonna try and start eating a little more healthier, not that I don't eat healthy now. I think I do. I just skip meals. Like there are some days when I only eat one. Most of the time I usually eat 2 meals a day. This morning I had an orange powerade and water melon for breakfast. I sometimes eat cereal, some sugar kind and no sugar kind. I would say my favorite cereal would be Special K, I eat that alot with no sugar. I like Rice Chex too, also with no sugar. So I think I got breakfast covered. I think I will just cut down on carbs for the rest of my meals.

I did not mention this, but my X-Box broke awhile ago. It stopped reading discs. Well I got a real good deal on E-bay for a replacement a couple days ago. They were selling a working X-Box and all the cables for 9.99 with 13.00 bucks shipping. I found the auction with 1 hour left, no bids, so I watched it. I didn't bid. It got down to 2 minutes left, no bids so I bid 9.99. Thought twice about it and increased my bid to 17.00 bucks. 30 bucks for a working X-Box is still a deal. Well, I didn't really need to increase my bid, nobody else bid on it and I won. Cool. 24.00 bucks for an X-Box. That's a dam good deal. Got it in the mail yesterday, hooked it up......Gold! It worked. Awesome. I looked on the shipping label. The poor guy lost money on the deal. It cost him 24.87 to send it to me. Oh well. Now, I've learned this from buying these types of systems in the past. There is a pretty good chance that there might be a game inside. Opened it up and sure enough there was. Halo 2. Sweet. That's a popular game. I hate playing it, I don't like first person shooters. I'm pretty sure I could sell it for a couple bucks....hell I got it for free. Bonus!! Oh and BTW, this is an original X-Box I'm talking about. I don't do the new crap....it's way too expensive.

Well, that's what's going on in my neck of the woods. I'll know Friday if I have a blood sugar issue or not. I'm watching what I eat and drink these next couple days. I hope I don't I'll let you all know.

NEVER GIVE UP!!!!!!  NEVER SURRENDER!!!!!!

Friday, July 5

No Chemo This Week

Didn't do Chemo this week. Went in last Tuesday and they said my blood platelet count was too low. Their cut off is 50, mine were 43. Oh well. The Doc said that's why I have been so tired. I go in next Tuesday, I'll get my cancer drugs then. I been feeling normal. No pain anywhere or anything. Just tired as hell. Oh yeah, the taste buds are back!!!!! WooHoo!! Had a pizza the other night and it was great! Now just gotta go get a Big Mac to see how that tastes. I used to love Big Macs but since the taste bud crap, they have tasted like total shit to me. I hope it tastes good now and my tastes buds remain normal....I hope, I hope.

Didn't do anything for the 4th, It was raining and crappy out. I slept all day. Watched the few fireworks that the neighbors were lighting off. No biggie. That's one thing I can not understand. The lure of fireworks. Some people go apeshit over them. I just don't see it. I mean the big ones that cities usually shoot off. I called my mom last night, my dad loves watching fireworks. They were at the firework show up in scumtown and she said they had been there for 4 hours waiting. I said crap, really? What for? She said to get a good spot. There were thousands of people there to watch them. She feels the same as I do about fireworks. You seen one, you seen them all...eh. I don't even bother anymore.

I plan on going into the city today if the lady gets out of bed in time. I want to go to a certain pawn shop there that is supposed to have good deals on old video games. We will see. There is also a place I want to talk to about trading some of my vinyl for store credit. They carry old vinyl, used dvds, cds, and video games. Might trade some doubles or some of the ones I don't want for video games. Who knows. If they give me a good price.

Going to put one of my old video game systems in the kids room this weekend. He should like that. That poor kid ain't got nothin at home with his mother. All of his toys are here and his room is just big enough for the queen bed we have in there and a little walk way around one side. He ain't got room for crap. Me and the lady are going to have to get him a smaller bed so he has room for his toys and room to play and stuff. Him and his sister are here now as far as I'm concerned. This is their home. Period. If the mother wants to fight, she's gonna have a big fight on her hands. Gotta get a bed for the baby too. Right now she sleeps in a  little playpen in our bedroom. I told the lady that she is probably going to loose her computer room to the baby. She don't mind. She would much rather have the baby here than have a computer room I think.

I really like having the kids here. They bring a breath of life into the house that comforts me. I like watching the little baby and the way her eyes light up when she discovers something new. That makes me feel really good. I'm starting to love them both. Especially the little baby. It brings a tear to my eye sometimes when I get up and walk into the living room, she looks at me and is excited to see me and runs over and says "papa" and wants me to pick her up. I love it when she does that. 

I really don't think we are going to have a problem with the mother. She had been putting the kids in daycare while she was working when the 9yr old had school. He got out for summer vacation and we have had them since. When vacation started the mother said that the baby had to go to daycare at least 1 day a week because she did not want to loose her spot at that daycare. I understood, a good close daycare is hard to find. We said cool, no problem. The first week the lady took the baby down there on a Monday no problem. The next week I took the baby. The guy at the desk said that I could not leave her and there was a problem. I said oh yeah? He then told me that they had not been paid in over 2 months. The mother owed them over 200 bucks. I said Ha, that don't surprise me. I told the guy that I would have my wife tell the mother, and she didn't really need day care to begin with. The kids are always welcome with us. Well the lady called the mother, told her the news.....ain't heard nothing back from the mother. That was over a month ago. She has not even called to talk/check on her kids. Do you believe that crap. Well, the kids are loved and being cared for by us. It's going to stay that way.

Well, that's it. LOL, not much going on here. Feeling good and fighting. I'm always gonna fight. I am never going to give up fighting this disease.

NEVER GIVE UP!!!!!!   NEVER SURRENDER!!!!!!

Tuesday, July 2

Doing Fine

Been awhile since my last post. I have been doing ok actually. Started new Chemo drugs last week and there have been no problems. Actually I think these drugs are not screwing with my taste buds as things have been tasting alot better to me. Especially soda. I'm not getting any after taste when I drink a soda now. I have not tried a pizza yet, really ain't been in the mood for one. Probably will next week.

I go in for Chemo today, just waiting for that time to come. I was right in my last post, these Chemo drugs do not take as long as the others I was on to administer, and NO PUMP!!!!! WooHooo!!!

Like I said I'm doing ok. No pain anywhere, I feel normal. I have been doing alot of sleeping the past 2 days. I think I have slept 2 days straight. Only up to eat something then back to bed. The Doc said these new drugs would hit 2x in the blood count dept. My counts go down, I get tired. There is nothing that can be done. That's ok with me. When I work I drink coffee and Mountain Dew, that's how I stay awake, lol. Also chatting with the guys in the office when they are on.

Well, I have the basement how I want it now. Just need to get one more shelf. I have my baseball cards in their place, my records in their place, comic books and non-sports cards in their place as well. I just need to break out my video game systems and hook those up and it will be complete. Picked up a couple nintendo carts at Goodwill a few days ago, I'm gonna have to get off of my lazy ass and start going to yard sales again. Not for baseball cards and comic books, but yard sales are a great place to find records and video games. I still collect all of that stuff, I just do not look for the stuff on ebay, I still look on ebay for video games though. The 127 sale is coming up next month. I hoping to score some good video games finds during that.

The other half of the basement I gave the lady is in total chaos. I have finally figured her out. She's a stacker. She has all these little piles of crap all over the house. The basement is no different. She bitched at me for a whole month how she wanted another shelf down there. Well 3 weeks ago I went out and got her one and told her I would put it together whenever she wanted. The shelf is sitting exactly where I put it when I got it home. I have not touched it, and the lady has not bitched about a shelf either. Man, that burns me. Now I know the lady ain't never gonna be fucking happy unless she is bitching about something. I think most wives are like that actually. I have been spending alot of time down here in the basement. It's peaceful down here. I tell the lady I don't want to be bothered, and that's it. They leave me the fuck alone. It's not that I'm in a bad mood, or pissed off at them or anything, I'm just getting tired of dealing with the kids. I like having them here, and they are going to stay here, it's just sometimes I need my time. I don't know how the lady does it. She has not had anytime to herself since they have been here. That 9 yr old is constantly on her ass. He's a little mamas boy. I have tried to be tough on him but the lady don't like it. She has turned him into a little wuss. He's gonna have problems when he gets older being a little femie wuss like he is. Oh well, I tried. If he gets his ass kicked and wants me to teach him how to fight, I will. I tried to teach him awhile ago and the lady didn't want me too. I'm just glad he's living with us and not his mother. His mother lives in the scum part of town and with him being there it would be only a matter of time till he starts hanging out with the wrong crowd. His mom's a fucking skank and she belongs there, he don't.

Well, nothing much else going on. It's been pretty quiet actually. Feeling normal and doing alot of sleeping...LOL.

NEVER GIVE UP!!!!! NEVER SURRENDER!!!!!!