Monday, January 21

Records

I don't know if I have said this in the past, but I'm getting back into records. Vinyl that is. I never got out of it really. I was actively looking for vintage video games and systems and did acquire very many games and systems.

Sitting in my basement one day awhile ago listening to an album I noticed something. I did have a lot of games and systems on my shelves. About 10 different systems and a lot of games for each one. I had not touched them. I had not played any of  them at all, just sat them there after I got them to collect dust. On the other hand here I am listening to a record album and the box I tore open to get to it still sitting in front of me next to the stack of albums that I listened too the other day. It dawned on me then. Why am I collecting old video games? They're cool and they look pretty cool all on the shelf and unique, but I don't play them.

I decided to get back into actively collecting records again. I'm going to box up the video games break out the records and enjoy them. I never stopped listening to my vinyl. I'm re-arranging the basement in a few days for the lady's birthday. I'm going to finally put up her shelves for her large pantry. She has told me that she has always wanted a very large pantry. Well, I have given her half of the basement and that will be her pantry. It's gonna be huge. There are already lots of boxes and bags of dry goods and cans and stuff stacked on the floor on that side. She is going to have the shelves half full with just what is in there now. I don't care. As long as she is happy. I'm fine. I can always put up more shelves.

Took the lady and the kids out to dinner last night. We went to Ryans again. I am starting to get kinda sick of that place. The salad was good but everything else was just OK. The kids and the lady enjoyed it.

The 8yr old said something to me in the car when we were at the store waiting for the lady, he said "grand pa ya know, your the closest thing I have to a father" I told him that it is alright, I ain't going anywhere soon. This is sad, this kid knows that his parents are worthless. Ya, sure the dad is in jail now, but, when he was out he didn't do a dam thing for the kid. I've told this kid several times, he can always rely on my and his grand ma. We will never let him down, and he will always have a place to go, period. An 8yr old should not have to worry about crap like that. It's fucking pathetic. I wish his mom would just off herself, the kids would be better off I think.

Those kids are always going to have a home as long as I'm alive. Period. My lady is their mother. The one that claims she is, is just the owner of the cunt they crawled of.

Saturday, January 19

Sill Here

It's been a few days. Well, 2013 ain't starting out that bad. The weather has been real nice. Cold, but no snow or ice. We had freezing rain a few nights ago, but it didn't ice up the roads none.

The lady made steaks a few nights ago, man they were great! That meat just melted in my mouth. That's one thing that my taste buds ain't screwed up on and that's steak.

Have not done much to the basement, I'm going to in a couple days. I have given half to the lady, so I'm gonna move my bar out into the garage and put shelves up in that part for her expanded pantry. Hell, there is a bunch of food out there now in bags and crap. That's gonna be one of her birthday surprises, those shelves. Both of our birthdays are coming up soon, I'm gonna tell her just to make me a turkey dinner with all the trimmings for mine. I don't need or want anything really, well, except some new tires for the truck. That's it.

Been feeling pretty good the last couple days. I have been really tired and have been doing a lot of sleeping. I went and saw the doc yesterday and he said that I look good and I am tolerating the chemo very well. I am very strong. That's good. He told me last week that the combination of drugs that I am on right now has never been tried before. I am hoping they work really good and knock this cancer on it's ass. It looks as if I will be going in for another CT scan in about a month and a half. I have to do 3 more chemo treatments first.

I pray to the good lord everyday that these drugs are killing the cancer inside of me. I thank him as well for sending me a sign to get in to get checked. We still have the kids.....I'm kinda thinking that's the reason the good lord sent me that sign. Wanted me to stay around and make sure those kids were taken care of right. My lady sure as hell can not do it by herself, and their mother simply wont. Period. It's sad too, they're good kids. They don't deserve that shit. I don't care. If the good lord wants me around to see that those kids have a good life......so be it. It's not the kids being here that bothers me, the kids don't bother me at all. It's the fact that the mother takes no responsibility for them at all. She don't give the lady a dime to watch them.....the chick is living with 2 guys, probably screwing them both. She does not worry about her kids at all. It can go weeks and she will not even call to check on them. That is what bothers me. She is taking advantage of us. We are doing it to make sure the kids are ok, their mom could give a shit about their well being honestly.

The lady is going to contact the state and get the investigation going. This woman has abandoned her kids and we are going to try and get her declared unfit. If that happens the state will place them with us and then we will get child support from her. I may even go for changing their last names to mine. Not sure yet.

Wednesday, January 2

First Day of 2013

Today was a good day. I feel really good no issues anywhere got some sleep and the lady made homemade pizza for supper, and it tasted good to me!!!!!!

I was at the grocery store getting some things and we had not decided on what to have for supper. I was walking around the store trying to think of something when she called me and suggested homemade pizza. I was heartbroken. My taste buds are screwed due to the Chemo drugs and all the pizza I have tried since I been taking them has tasted like crap to me. I told her this and she suggested that we try it out and if the pizza tastes like crap, she would make me french toast. I'm a sucker for her french toast. The pizza was great! I ate the whole thing....LOL. That brightened my day.

Like I said, today was a great day, I hope the rest of 2013 turns out like today did. Last year sucked.

It's 5 am here right now. I slept most of the day yesterday, the 1st. Took a nap last night for four hours and have been up since midnight. The lady has a doctors appt today in the city I gotta take her too and the kid goes back to school today. I ain't taking his ass to the bus stop, screw that shit. I don't want the kids here to begin with.

The next time I see the worthless mom, I'm telling her I'm charging her rent. 30 bucks a week for her kids to stay here, she is not giving the lady a dime to watch them.....so fuck it. She is going to pay me. It's not about the money with me. It's about her taking fucking responsibility for her fucking kids. Right now the lady is watching them, and the bitch can whore around and party and do anything she wants without worrying about them. Fuck that. She's giving me 120 bucks a month for that privilege. Period.

See right now the bitch thinks she is doing my lady a favor by "letting" my lady watch her fucking kids. I gotta turn that shit around. The bitch takes the fucking kids back......good. I'll CPS on her ass and get her declared unfit and make the bitch pay us child support.

The free ride is over. I can't wait to see the look on the bitches face when I drop the rent bomb on her.

Monday, December 31

New Yars Eve

It's New Years Eve. I'm working. I feel really good today. I got a lot of sleep yesterday. Went to bed last night at around 11 and woke up today at 4 in the afternoon.....lol. These dam chemo drugs knock the shit outta me.

Well, I have come to a cross roads. I have been collecting video games now for about 9 months. I have gotten quite a  lot of different systems and games for each. I have yet to play any of them. I have not played any of them at all I noticed a couple days ago. They are just sitting there on a shelf. However, I have been listening to my records constantly for the same time. I'm putting the video games away. I have been stacking boxes with my records in them going through them looking for ones I want to play........putting my records back on the shelves and am going to actively start building my record collection again. I never really stopped collecting records anyway, just did not really pursue it on a daily basis.

I got a really good deal on 5 Chubby Checker 45's from the bay. I was surprised I won the auction. They came in the mail today and I am very pleased. A couple of the records are in mint/mint shape. They look like they have never been played and 4 of them came with the picture sleeve for the records!!! It goes to show, you can still get a good deal on Ebay if your patient.

Like I said, I am feeling really good today. So, the first day of the new year I am going to be feeling really good. I hope that is a view of things to come in the next year.

It has been 7 months since my diagnosis. I feel the same. I am getting some side effects from the chemo, but, other than that I feel the same. I have not lost any weight, my doc says that's a real good sign. I am fighting this, I try to stay optimistic and look forward to things. Working from home sucks, I can not wait for the day to come when I can go into work. That may happen soon, I'm not sure. I am soooooo glad that I am not a slave to those fucking smokes any more. I feel 1000 times better since I have quit. Not to mention I am not spending close to 200 bucks a month on them either. I'm spending that cash on records.....LOL.

I'd like to thank you all for reading about my mundane life. Not sure how many readers I have, I don't know how to check that crap.....LOL. But, thank you none the less. I am hopeful the coming year brings with it good times and perhaps a cancer free diagnosis for me. I am hopeful. I am going to fight this till my last breath!!!  Take Care all and may God Bless you guys.

NEVER GIVE UP!!!!!!!  NEVER SURRENDER!!!!!!!

Friday, December 28

Feeling Good

Christmas morning went off without a hitch. The kid got some pretty good loot this year. I had a good time watching the kid open his presents. It was fun. After he opened his presents, I went to bed, I was up all night working.

The lady woke me up at around 6 for Christmas dinner. I was looking forward to that. It was great except for my favorite part. The ham tasted like crap to me. These dam Chemo drugs screw with my taste buds and certain foods leave a really horrible after taste in my mouth. The ham did. I was pissed. Everything else tasted great. I was scared that was going to happen. Well, it has been a few days since, I have tried some ham again with the same results. There is a lot of ham leftover. The lady has already made a big pan of scalloped potatoes and ham. I love that. Tried some tonight, BONUS!!! It tasted good to me! No after taste. Great!!! She is going to use the rest of the leftovers to make me some homemade navy bean soup. I love that stuff too. I am hopeful that it will not taste like crap to me.

Don't have anything planned for New Years Eve. I'll probably work. We have not ever done anything that night. Too dam crowded and I hate people to begin with. We stay home. Ain't gonna be drinking this year. I have been sober now for 7 months and have not had a smoke in 2 months. I am breathing a lot better now. I like being a non smoker. I went over to a friends house a few days ago, he smokes. It has been the first time I have been close to somebody actually smoking for an extended period. I had no trouble at all. I did smell it a little bit, but as far as wanting to smoke or anything, nothing. No feelings what so ever. Cool. So, I think it is pretty safe to say I have finally kicked that fucking habit for good!!!! I am not ever going to touch a cigarette ever again!!!!!!

Got a docs appointment today. Not doing Chemo today, just going in for blood work. I'm also taking that lady to the ER. She has had a chest cold or something for a couple weeks now. She has been coughing up green stuff and crap. I hope it's not bad. She's going in and we will see.

Other than that I feel really good today. I am hoping that my lady does not require an overnight hospital stay, but, if the doc recommends it, so be it.

Later All

Tuesday, December 25

Christmas Eve

Well, it's Christmas Eve. I'm working. I decided to work tonight because the kid is gonna get us up early anyways. I already caught him peaking his nose out of his room.....hehehe. I'm feeling really good. The only thing really bothering me is my tongue. I bit it a few days ago way in the back real hard and have not been able to enjoy a meal since. It hurts like a mutha! I wish this dam thing would heal. Other than that I feel peachy.

Boy, I'll tell ya. That fucking kids mom really takes the cake. The bitch wanted the kids all night tonight,the lady of course said no way. She was not going to let that bitch ruin their Christmas. The lady said, lol. She came and got them at about 4 PM this afternoon. The lady told her to bring them back at 8. No problem.

Well she showed up 30 minutes late.....that don't surprise me. I asked the kid what she got him for Christmas. What he told me almost floored me. This kid says, his mother.......told him that he would get his presents after Christmas and then gave him a shirt. Unwrapped even. A shirt that she didn't even purchase. It was from his other grand mother. Do You Believe That Shit?  I didn't, I told the kid that he had 1 chance to come clean. He better be telling the truth and if I were to find out he is not telling the truth, I would take all of his presents back. Well, he said he was telling the truth. I don't believe it. How a mother could be so fucking self centered to ignore her kids on fucking Christmas. It's an outrage.

Well, needless to say, there are plenty of presents under that tree for the kids this year. They are heaped up all around it. That kid is going to have a good Christmas this year. His fucking parents should not have been able to have kids. I'm soooooo fucking pissed.

I heard that this is a growing trend these days. Young people that are fucking worthless and their parents raising their kids. I know a guy at work who is doing the same thing. His wife's daughter had a kid and him and his wife adopted her. That's fucked. These dam young people today are fucking worthless. It pisses me off that society puts up with worthless fucking people such as this. In my case the mom is going to have her day real soon and the worthless fucking father is in jail. I say send them all to fucking work camps. Make the fuckers work for their food and lodging. Jail is too good for the fuckers.

These fucking kids now days feel entitled. They think the world owes them a fucking living. They have been coddled their whole fucking life, now when they can't make it they resort to crime or live off of mommy and daddy. I say fuck that. Make them all serve in the military at least 4 years. It will make them grow the fuck up. Hell joining the military was the best thing I ever did for myself. It grew me the fuck up quick.

That's it. Rant over. I feel great and am looking forward to watching the kid open his presents. All you that read this have a safe and happy Christmas and New Year.!!!!!!

Tuesday, December 18

This Dam Pump

Doing good tonight. Had Chemo today, man these new drugs take a long time to take. I think I am taking 4-5 different drugs and it takes about 5-6 hours for them to give them all to me. Needless to say I gotta lug this dam pump around with me for the next 2 days. Other than that, things have been going real good.

Well, I think I have bonded with the little baby. I like having her around. She is such a little cutie, it's almost impossible NOT to like her. I am starting to care about her more and more each day. It brightens my day when I walk by her and smile at her and she smiles back and jumps up and down excited to see me. It warms my heart.

Well, one thing I have noticed. These new chemo drugs do not make me as tired as the last ones did. I am finding I have alot more energy, especially on Chemo days. I think they are giving me more steroids. I'm on the juice.

Speaking of juice, I had some orange juice this morning and it tasted horrible. I hate my taste buds being out of wack like this. I used to love the taste of orange juice. Just didn't drink it that often.

Well, I think I maybe getting a laptop soon. I seen one at Wallyworld for only 288. It's got a 320 gig HD and all the other crap I need. The only thing I really plan on using it for is surf and store all of my music. Think I may pick that up next week, not sure. I plan on putting all of my vinyl on it. That will be sweet. I also am planning on getting more 45's now that I have a way to store them. It's gonna be cool.

Ain't heard nothing from the jailbird. It looks as if he is going to be in jail for awhile. I think they offered him a deal like......if he goes to court and is found guilty, they could sentence him to 40 years. If he pleaded guilty with no court he would get 8 years out in 10 months on parole. He is getting railroaded I think. But, oh well. He deserves it I think for letting his wife take it that far. The other bum son up North has already called several times wanting money. I think he is blaming his mom for not letting him move his family down here and mooch off of us. I heard the lady tell him one night that the she does not own this house, somebody else does......HELL YEAH somebody else does! That somebody is not going to be taken advantage of by scum either. Screw that. I told my lady, nobody, NOBODY is staying here ever again. Period. I am not giving her worthless family a dime ever again and never going to do anything to help them. Been there, done that. The trough is dry.

The kids can stay live here. That way I know they are ok and will not be harmed. Also, I like having them here. That's it though. No more kids and anybody else.

Doing pretty good otherwise, oh, my dog is feeling alot better and the stench is gone. Man, It was bad there for a little while. The stench has been gone now for a few weeks and he has been feeling alot better. I take him into the vet for a follow up in a couple days. I am hoping his ear infection has cleared up.

Well that's it for now!