I'm A Hoarder

I feel ok today. For the last 2 weeks it has been hit or miss in how I feel. I don't think I am completely over that stomach crap, or the chemo is giving me the runs every other day. Other than the runs I have been feeling peachy.

Went and did my blood work at the DOC's office a few days ago. They told me I'm scheduled for another CT scan in 2 weeks. Apparently when they scanned me a couple weeks ago they only scanned my stomach. This time they are going to do the full thing chest, stomach, pelvis like normal. I'm hoping I get good news again. I have been trying to keep a positive attitude and fight this. My taste buds making food taste like crap is starting to get to me though and I am a little concerned about my weight.

The last 3 times I have been to the DOC they have weighed me each time, and each time it showed a loss. The last time it showed that I had lost 23 pounds in 3 weeks I think. My weight loss could be because I have had diarrhea for a couple weeks now and that stomach crap. I was not eating very much. Now I have my appetite back. I ate a huge plate of pasta and a Caesar salad for dinner tonight. My lady made sure I ate all that was on my plate, I didn't have a problem. It was very tasty for a change. I enjoyed this meal. I read that washing your mouth out with alcohol free mouthwash helps the metal taste that cancer patients get with chemo. I have not tried that yet, but will the next time something tastes shitty to me. So, that's how I have been doing. Not bad, but not fantastic either. Good in the cancer dept. though. Crappy in the stomach/plumbing dept. LOL.

Now I'm going to address the title of this post. I've added another thing to the list of things that I collect. Non-Sports cards. When I was a kid I collected Baseball Cards and have started that back up. I also collected Non-Sport card wrappers. I think they look pretty cool. So, I got a few Non-Sport card boxes with all of their packs of cards to display. I have gotten 4 of them so far. The Black Hole, Close Encounters Of The Third Kind, Dune and Jaws 2. I have them sitting on my self displayed like they would be in the store. It looks pretty cool. I plan on getting more. They ain't worth anything, so buying them off of the Bay is kinda cheap. I think I payed about 12.00 for each box so that's not bad. I like looking at them.

I still collect Vinyl and old video games. I am just going to go searching for them on the Bay or internet. If I see any at a flea market or garage sale I'll pick them up. I am not storing them away either. Now that I have taken that big table apart I have a bunch of room to display everything.....LOL.

Oh, almost forgot. I'm gonna start my comic collection back up too......LOL. Hence the title of this post. I'm a Hoarder!!!!!

I will finish On that note....hahahaha. Feeling pretty good today and probably will tomorrow as well. I am fighting this and with the Lords help we will prevail!!!!!

NEVER GIVE UP!!!!!!!!!!!   NEVER SURRENDER!!!!!!!

Feeling OK

I;m feeling ok today. Looks like I'm back on schedule. Didn't work last night, I slept. All night. Slept all day yesterday too. I'm getting real sick of food tasting like crap to me. I can't eat nothing.

I do not think I mentioned this, but the past couple weeks I have had alot of energy. Don't know why. Well that has subsided. No more energy, but, I did get alot of things done that needed to get done.

I opened the pool. Put everything together and it has been running for about a week now. The water had a green tint to it, I dumped some chlorine in there and now it's clean. I got some algaecide from the pool store, dumped that in there. Now the water is cloudy from all the dead algea. I talked to the pool guy, I'm gonna have him come out and vacume the bottom. It has a ton of leaves in it. So, the pool will be up to speed in about a week.

I moved the crap around in the basement and took apart that big table I built. The hard part is over now. I just have to order some boxes and crap and I will have a place to store my baseball cards when I start getting them...sweet.

Like I said. Been feeling ok. Still have a little stomach ache now and then. Boy, that stomach crap I had really sucked. It was painful as hell. Think of a real bad stomach ache that will not go away, even when you go number 2. I could not move, walk, anything. It sucked. I'm glad that it is almost gone. The DOC thinks the Tarceva I took daily caused it. He has since taken me off of it again. He's the DOC. I will do what he says. If it were not for him, I would not be here right now. I'm glad he moved my scan up to find out what was wrong with my stomach.

This food tasting like crap is starting to get the best of me. I can't stand it. I can not eat anything anymore. I made a pizza last night hoping it would taste ok.Not. Pissed me the fuck off. My lady made me some hambuger helper. That tasted ok. There was still a little metal aftertaste. But, I didn't tell her that. I can not enjoy my meals anymore. Eating was a big thing for me. I enjoyed it very much.....now it's more of a job than anything else. I can see why people in my position loose weight, why eat when it all tastes like shit. Candy and sweets still taste good but, I can't make a meal out of those. I'm finding it harder and harder to keep my weight on with food tasting like shit. The last 3 times I went to the DOC it showed a weight loss. I tired eating a Big Mac the other day.....shit. I used to love Big Macs. I forced them down.

Well, that's it for now. I gotta go to the store and pick up my MEDS. I'm never going to give up!!!!!

Good News!!!!

Got some good news on Monday. Due to me having this colitis crap my Doc decided to move my CT scan up to last Friday. That's when he found out I had colitis. The scan showed it. Went in for the cancer results on Monday.

NO GROWTH!!!!! Nothing really. The cancer is just hanging out. I can live with that. No new growth anywhere either. SWEET!!!!!!!!!!

Still Feeling Crappy

I got a colon infection. Colitis it's called. That;s why I have been feeling crappy for the last few days. Went into see the Doc Wed about it. He moved my CT scan up to that following Friday. Went in did that, and the scans showed my colon inflamed.

Whew, that's fine with me. I thought it was something to do with the cancer, but it's not. I'm glad my Doc moved the CT scan up. I get the cancer results tomorrow. I'm hoping for good results, I hope I hope.

Been feeling really shitty. Have a constant bad stomach ache and it makes me feel terrible. I don't feel like doing anything. That will explain this short post.

Hope I get Good News tomorrow.

Went To Chemo, Things are going Good

Went to Chemo yesterday. The DOC came in and said things are going good. My blood looks real good, I look real good. He asked my about any pain, my eating and bathroom breaks. I told him I have no pain anywhere, I'm eating normal and bathroom breaks are normal as well. He said that's sounds good. We are doing very well.

I did tell him of one concern I have, I have lost weight. In 2 weeks I have lost 13 pounds. I have been eating normal, but, have been drinking alot of liquids. Been thirstier than hell actually. He told me right now, It.s no cause for concern and we will keep an eye on it.

So, I'm lugging this pump around again. I hate it, but if it kills the cancer so be it.

Not felling very well today. Been up since 6am and have spent most of that time in the bathroom. I got the runs. Crap, I wanted to go into the city today too. So did the lady, she ain't gonna be happy when she gets up and I tell her. Oh well. It can't be helped. To tell you all the truth, I would much rather have this than be plugged up. That's for sure.

The DOC did tell me that we will take a CT scan in 4 weeks. Oh, I hope the results are good.

According to the DOC we are doing well, I can't help but think that more can be done. This sucks. The research and funding for this cancer is a joke. It is at the level Breast Cancer was 30 years ago. People need to be informed.

Well, that's about it. Feeling really crappy today, but It will pass.

I am never going to stop fighting!!!! I thank you all for your support.

NEVER GIVE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  NEVER SURRENDER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Buds Are Gone

Went to chemo last week, My taste buds are trashed again. Well, at least I had a couple days to enjoy them anyways. The Doc put me back on my daily chemo pill too. It didn't take that long for chemo this time. They did not give me the stuff that I had a reaction to last time. Still had to lug the pump home though. But, oh well, I am prepared to do anything except hurt somebody to beat this cancer.

The lady is starting to get on my nerves. She has been on this weight loss kick for a few years now and it's starting to get old. She got these fucking books she ordered off of the fucking TV and I swear this so called system is so fucking complicated. She wants my help and hell, I don't even understand some of the crap in there. She weighs herself everyday and if she gains a pound is upset, I and the fucking doctor have told her, her weight is going to fluctuate 4-5 pounds daily. Well, I'm getting sick of it.

Having to deal with cancer is one thing, having to deal with a neurotic girlfriend is another. If that ain't enough on top of the shit pile, she worries about the dam grand kids. I worry a little myself. That fucking mom they have. Every time we get the kids there is something wrong with the baby, cold, ear infection...etc. My lady doctors the baby up and she is in good shape when we send them back. This last time it just broke my heart. That little baby was weezing and caughing......man I got so pissed. I could hear and feel the little thing weeze when breathing when I held her. That dam bitch ain't watching and taking care of her kids. I'm pissed.

The lady has something planed to get the mom out of the picture. I don't know what, but I hope she does it soon before that fucking mom neglects her baby enough for it to die.

If anything happens to those kids.....I will make it a mission in my life to see that bitch executed, or sitting on death row.

The BUDS are Back!!!!!!!!

My taste buds are back!!!!!!! WooHoo!!!  I had a pizza last night it was fucking delicious!!!! Even water tastes good now. I can taste mushrooms, ham......man I been eating like a pig. Oh man, this is sweet. But, it is short lived. I go for chemo in 2 days. Well tomorrow actually. Today is Monday morning. Early Monday morning. I don't care. At least I was able to enjoy normal taste buds for a couple days.

I am hoping this little break did not give the cancer time to start growing again. The DOC said it wouldn't but, I'm skeptical. I have not had any pain or anything so that's a good sign. I have even noticed I have a little more energy though out the day. I am finally going to move the crap around in this basement today. I really want to start collecting baseball cards again. Not the new ones, the new ones suck and are too expensive. I am going to concentrate on the pre 1982 ones. I'm going to start to put together the Topps 1968 set. Then go from there.

Other than that, nothing new has happened lately. Been feeling normal. I have been kinda scared with this break and not taking chemo. I don't like just sitting around and not doing anything, knowing that this beast is inside me. I still do take Tumeric daily. I was mixing it with Vegetable juice, but I got some pills that I have been taking the past 2 months. I really think that stuff is helping.

I have been drinking alot of Mexican Coke Cola. They sell it at Walmart and Kroger. It is Coke made with real sugar and in a glass bottle! Oh man, nothing is better than drinking an ice cold Coke Cola out of a glass bottle. It tastes so good. If any of you have not tried it, I suggest you do. You will be surprised. I also found some Pepsi rollback in a glass bottle at Walmart. So, I did a little taste test. (remember The Pepsi Challenge?) Coke vs Pepsi. Coke got it hands down for me. The Pepsi was just too sweet.  Walmart is also selling Mountain Dew rollback in the glass bottles as well. I really like that stuff. It's really good, tastes alot better out of a glass bottle. If you would like to try the Mexican Coke, both Kroger and Walmart sell it in the Hispanic food aisle.

The lady and I have been getting the kids every weekend. We had them over Easter Break. What really burns me up is........when we got the kids, the baby was sicker than a dog. Had a really bad cold, ear infection. She had 3-4 different medicines that she had to take. Well, my lady doctored her up real good. By the time it was time for the kids to go back with their mother the little baby was fine. That was 2 weeks ago. We got the kids a couple days ago. My lady noticed the other night the baby had a fever. She gave her some medicine and she went back to sleep. Yesterday the little baby had a fever again......WTF!!! That dam mom ain't taking care of the baby or something. We get her healed up, give her to the mom, she gets sick again. I told that bitch if I find out she is neglecting those kids, and if anything happens to them....I'm gonna put her ass in jail. I'm pissed. Those kids deserve soooo much better. My lady told me tonight, the 9yr old has a bed kinda finally. The bitch mom went and got a new mattress for the boyfriend, and guess where the old one went. To the 9yr old. Now instead of sleeping on the couch, he is sleeping on a mattress on the floor. My lady says she is working on getting those kids and having the mom thrown in jail. I hope she hurries up and it works. Those kids deserve a better life.