Had Chemo

My blood counts were up, so I had Chemo yesterday. I didn't get a chance to talk with the doc, he did not come back to the chemo area at all, he must have been kinda busy. That's ok, I'll catch him next week.

I feel fine, slept almost all day yesterday and all night last night.

I'm still smoking. In the mornings when I wake up, or whenever I wake up rather, I still like to have a couple cigs when I'm drinking my coffee. Throughout the day I have noticed that smoking isn't a priority. Usually I go out and have one due to boredom. That has got to stop.

The lady is continuing to get on my nerves. Now that I work at home, I am here constantly, and it's getting to me. I need a break from her and these dam kids. It's not that they are a bunch of trouble, they are not.I just don't like them being here. I don't have to do anything with them. The lady takes care of them, entertains them...etc. I just go into the basement or something. So, I really don't have a ligit bitch, I just don't like them here. I hate kids. But, like I said in the past. I may dislike kids, but, I will not, I repeat will not, let them get hurt or anything. That bitch mom of theirs is a real crappy parent and I will not let her do anything to hurt them.

I'm an adult, I can deal with the kids, I'm just bitching here to get it off my chest. Can't bitch at the lady, she don't deserve it. She works her ass off taking care of them, me and the house. She deserves a medal. Period.

I think when I beat this (hopefully) I'll take her on a cruise. We have never been on one, I think it will be kinda boring, but it's not going to be for me. She likes Alaska, maybe I'll take her on one of those. She really does deserve it. I wish there is something I could do for her now that would show my appreciation, think I'll ask her later today. I wonder what she will say. Probably will want a little more help around the house, that's no bother for me. I do whatever she asks now, just not all the time when she asks it. If it's kinda of a time consuming thing, I wait a day or two. That's understandable I think.

I have been spending alot of time down here in the basement lately. It's not all the kids.....the lady has been watching The Waltons and Little House On The Prairie constantly. Fucking Hallmark channel shows 3-4 shows of each, each fucking day! My lady DVR's them and watches them all. I can't stand those fucking shows. My parents watched that shit back in the early 80's when they were new and I couldn't stand them then. I let her watch what she wants, it's the only thing that she can do really besides housework. She has not played her WOW game in ages. I think it is because she don't want the 8yr old hovering over her. I don't blame her at all. When he comes down here for an errand and I'm on the PC, he is curious as to what I'm doing, I have to tell him to go upstairs. It's not his fault. He's a kid and he's probably bored as well.

The lady went and visited the jailbird the other day, I told her not to go, but apparently it was his birthday.....sweet, the fuck had to spend his birthday in the clink......that's good for him. He deserves it. I hope he rots in there actually. He called her last night wanting something, I don't know what. I am sure glad I got collect calls blocked on our phones when the last worthless son was in the clink. He can't call her collect. He used his own dime this time.......he should the worthless good for nothing fuck.

The 8yr old mentioned the other day he wanted to be an artist when he grows up......LOL, I asked him, like your dad? He said no......I then told him, well if you want to be an artist, you better get used to not eating and mooching off of anybody that you can, just like your old man. Become a bum. Your dad wants to be an artist and look where that got him. Never had a house or anything. I told him your dad or mom for that matter don't have anything. Is that what you want to be when you grow up? He said no. I then explained to him that someday he is going to be a man. A man takes care of his family, if he don't do anything but sit on his ass all day and lets his wife work a low paying job.......sooner or later things are going to fall apart. Like what is happening to your mom and dad now. The man gets an education so that when he gets out of school he can get a good job to take care of himself and his family if he wants one. Simple as that.

Don't know if it sunk in, his parents have this kids head so fucked up, he has already got abandonment issues. He's like a dog with my lady. Never lets her out of his site when he's here. I don't let him cling to me, fuck that. We will see. His fucking parents should have been sterilized and prevented from having kids, the scum. But, that is what scum does..................BREEDS.

It's pathetic.