White Coat Syndrome

Well, it turns out I have "white coat syndrome", apparently that's a fear of doctors......I knew that. I hate doctors.

Let me explain, I had to sign up for a new benefit package at work, new insurance, health coverage, shit like that. I opted for additional life insurance. I did not know this at the time, but I needed a physical for that.

Today a nurse came by the house to give me said physical. First thing she did was ask if my folks were still alive, how old they were, any major problems......shit like that for a medical history. She then broke out the blood pressure tester. She tested it, and asked if I had a history of high blood pressure, I said no, but in the past I have done this and the doctors have asked me if I was nervous, I said yes. She then explained to me what "white coat syndrome" is. Well, my blood pressure was high. The nurse said, we will wait for a little while. She took some blood, made me piss in a cup, height, weight, the normal crap. Took my blood pressure again and presto.......normal, well she said it was a little high, but well within norms. She then advised me that "white coat syndrome" has been verified and is real. It is the dread fear of doctors, dentists, etc......

I have it. Now, I do not fear doctors or dentists for fear of my life, it's not that bad, but, I don't like them. Don't like them enough for it to affect my blood pressure, LOL. I knew that. I will go to the doctor or dentist if I am in pain. That said. But, no pain, feeling regular, I'm gold. The lady on the other hand, she is at the fucking doctor 2-3 times a month sometimes. She thinks I should be that way........fuck that.

Well, the nurse did tell me that my smoking is taking a toll, and I should stop, my lung capacity is low for my age. I am cutting down. I have not gotten the blood results back yet, she said that would take about a week. I'm hopeful. I hope I don't have diabetes , I eat what I want and am overweight. I have read about the symptoms and have not had any, but, you never know. I'll wait and see.

She asked me how often I drink........I lied...........Of course. LOL!

2012 First Post!!!!!

The Holidays were ok. Went up north did Christmas with the folks. Turned out pretty good. I missed out on doing a few things with some old friends, but, otherwise we had a good time. New Years Eve was a bust, I worked.

So.....now I am just waiting for spring to come. Figured I would pull some overtime at work, but, found out it has dried up......fuck!!!! Oh well. I have figured out how to set up the stereo and TV in the music room. I am looking for a desk that I used to have that will work perfect. Was going to build one until I found out how much the lumber will cost. The desk I have in mind I have seen on Craigslist for 10-15 bucks. I might still build the stereo rack/cabinet not sure yet. If I can find a cheap one somewhere I will go that route.

Picked up a few atari carts up north, I'm always on the lookout for those. Well, 7 months till the 127 sale. The lady is already talking about it. We both are looking forward to that. I have invited my folks down for it. I hope they will be able to make it this year.

Well, it's 2012. I don't feel any different. I really don't have any resolutions other than cutting down on my drinking. I'm gonna try to get blasted only once a month instead of several times a month.....LOL. We will see. I have said this in the past, and I have always broke down, I'm not an alcoholic persay, but, I do drink more than normal. I'll see how this goes.

Turkey Day Was Alright

Thanksgiving was ok. Had the bum over again this year. This year the scum fuck was only an hour late. The bird came out real good. My lady did a great job on the dinner. It filled me up. We only cooked a 14 pound bird this year, needless to say all the leftovers were gone in a few days. Oh well.

The bum did not disappoint, we were talking over dinner and he stated that him and his wife are going up north for the holidays as well, wanted to know when we were going so we could travel together. He said that we both drive older vehicles and traveling together would be a good idea. I told the stupid fuck that there is not a dam thing wrong with my truck and I would trust in on a coast to coast drive, twice actually. I've made the trip several times, nothing is going to go wrong. Period. I am not going to be his safety valve, fuck that. If he is scared his car won't make it, don't go. Simple as that. The stupid fucker would probably hit me up for gas money, that is not going to happen.

I love my lady but her fucking sons are worthless. I wish they would just leave us the fuck alone.

Christmas

I'm starting to get into the Holiday mood. Been listening to Christmas music in the truck. There is a radio station here that has started playing Holiday music 24x7. There is another station here that does that, but they don't start until Thanksgiving. This one started early.

I have been sicker than a dog the last 3 days, was laid up in bed all day yesterday. I think it's a cold, not sure. This is the first time I have been real sick in a very long time. I usually don't get sick. I'm feeling better today, I called into work on Monday night, I could barely speak my voice was so bad, I'm going to take it easy today and perhaps go in tonight to make up for it. Not sure yet. I could really use the cash.

I have decided. We are going up North for Christmas. I have advised my folks and they are looking forward to it as am I. Not sure how long we will stay, but we are going.

I'm gonna go nurse the cold/flu whatever. Now I know why I hate being sick. This sux!

I'm Still A Smoker

Well, That didn't work. I still smoke. My girl quit. I'm proud of her, me, not so much.

I did actually try this time. The girl has been on me, which was to be expected, but, I had a little talk with her the other day, I hope it sunk in. I have noticed in the past, It takes my girl a little while to grasp certain things. I just think she just tries to push me, to see how far she can go. Fuckin chicks do that, alot.

So, I'm still a smoker. I changed a little but though. I don't smoke in the basement any longer, and try not to smoke in the car when she is with me.

Now, this last Feb, she had a real problem with her worthless son up North. Guess what? The stupid fuckers bitch is pregnant. That is not all. The bum down here has one on the way as well. I will never understand these fucking lowlife, scums. They can not even afford to support the little bastards they have now, and are adding on. Just goes to show you, scum are like a virus. They will breed. Period.

When I had to go up North to get my girl, I advised her that family don't treat each other like that and I was not going to stand for it. Well, it looks as if all has been forgiven and forgotten. Not I. I will remind my girl, and let her know what I think. If she don't like it and gets mad at me. I'm dropping her. Period. I am not going through that crap again. It's not my fault she can not get along with her family for longer than 2 weeks.

She is planning on going up North for Christmas, I said she. I have not agreed yet. I have just been not saying anything and she has been assuming that I am going to go. I'm not sure yet. I'm on the fence.

I'm not sure. I just may take her up there and leave her there for good. If she don't start standing up for herself to her worthless brood, I just may do that.

Still Smoke

Fuck.

48 Hours

48 Hours down. 2 Days. I have cheated. I had 5 puffs from a cig, took those last night at work. I am going to get past this. That little transgression is now history. It was a minor slip. I have since taken care of the problem. I had a pack of smokes in my car. I kept thinking of those smokes at work, and finally gave in and lit one. Well, no more. I threw them out the window this morning on my way home.

I am going to win this battle. I have been using the gum, I am not going to cheat anymore. My girl is hanging in there. I am proud of both of us.

I have noticed I am smelling things. Not sure if that's just my imagination, but who knows. I do wake up easier now, no hacking. That's a plus. I am excited. I can not wait to be free from these fuckers once and for all!!