Got some good news yesterday. I received my CT scan results. The results showed no change in the spots on my liver, however the tumor in my pancreas shrank a little bit possibly. The reason I say possibly is due to the measurement point and slice they looked at. But the important thing is the results showed no growth and no spreading and possible shrinkage. Great News!!!!
The doc is very happy how things are going for me, he says my attitude could not be better and to keep doing what I'm doing. I had chemo yesterday, we are not letting up. The doc said I could have a few so I celebrated last night and got pretty drunk.
It felt real good letting off a little steam. I slept for 14 hours today, so I'm feeling pretty good. My lady couldn't be happier as well.
We have to stay on top of this beast, the doc told me yesterday of a guy that he is treating that 2 months ago his tumor shrank by 30%, but just 2 weeks later it started growing again, fast, so we can't let up.
I pray to the good lord everyday for strength, I feel that he has a plan for me. My friends and family could not be more supportive and I am very thankful they are with me. I am going to beat this beast, I will fight to my very last ounce of strength.
NEVER GIVE UP!!!!!!! NEVER SURRENDER!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, March 13
Wednesday, March 6
Still Here
Still here and doing ok. Been feeling ok the past few days. Also been doing a lot of sleeping. Slept 30 hours last Sunday. Went to bed at 230 Sunday Morning, got out of bed at 0830 Monday Morning. Then took a nap that afternoon. This chemo is getting to me.
I can't eat anything without it tasting like crap. I get this horrible tin/metal aftertaste in my mouth when eating. I'm getting real sick of that. I know why people in my position usually loose weight now. Why eat when everything tastes like shit? But, I force it down. I ain't going to loose any weight. I think that's what is helping me a lot. The doctor says I am very strong. I think the weight is behind that a little.
I guess I was in pretty bad shape at the start of this. I asked the doc last week where we were going with the chemo, trying to kill the cancer so I can be rid of it, or just extending my life for a few months. He told me that the chemo is my friend, it is doing it's job and if I would not have started it when I did, I would not be here now.
The doc has been really happy with my progress, my last CT scan showed the cancer not growing and the spots on my liver shrinking. I am going for another CT scan next week and am very hopeful. The doc says if it's good news I may be able to take a break from chemo, he didn't say how long, but I hope it's long enough for me to get my taste buds back at least. If that's the case, I'm heading north. Going up north to get some good pizza, and see my parents. I wish I lived a little closer to them, but oh well. I have a very good job and have been told I will have it as long as I want. My company could not be working with me more. They are behind me 100% and helping me to beat this beast. I am going to WIN THIS WAR!!!!!!
I pray to the good lord above everyday for strength and thank him for the time that he has given me. I thank him for everyday I'm alive.
I can't wait to get back to work. Working from home was ok for the first couple weeks, now it sucks. I feel like a prisoner. But......it's not going to be forever, same with the taste buds......I am hoping I have this cancer on the ropes. My next scan will tell me. So guys, wish me luck.
NEVER GIVE UP!!!!!!!! NEVER SURRENDER!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can't eat anything without it tasting like crap. I get this horrible tin/metal aftertaste in my mouth when eating. I'm getting real sick of that. I know why people in my position usually loose weight now. Why eat when everything tastes like shit? But, I force it down. I ain't going to loose any weight. I think that's what is helping me a lot. The doctor says I am very strong. I think the weight is behind that a little.
I guess I was in pretty bad shape at the start of this. I asked the doc last week where we were going with the chemo, trying to kill the cancer so I can be rid of it, or just extending my life for a few months. He told me that the chemo is my friend, it is doing it's job and if I would not have started it when I did, I would not be here now.
The doc has been really happy with my progress, my last CT scan showed the cancer not growing and the spots on my liver shrinking. I am going for another CT scan next week and am very hopeful. The doc says if it's good news I may be able to take a break from chemo, he didn't say how long, but I hope it's long enough for me to get my taste buds back at least. If that's the case, I'm heading north. Going up north to get some good pizza, and see my parents. I wish I lived a little closer to them, but oh well. I have a very good job and have been told I will have it as long as I want. My company could not be working with me more. They are behind me 100% and helping me to beat this beast. I am going to WIN THIS WAR!!!!!!
I pray to the good lord above everyday for strength and thank him for the time that he has given me. I thank him for everyday I'm alive.
I can't wait to get back to work. Working from home was ok for the first couple weeks, now it sucks. I feel like a prisoner. But......it's not going to be forever, same with the taste buds......I am hoping I have this cancer on the ropes. My next scan will tell me. So guys, wish me luck.
NEVER GIVE UP!!!!!!!! NEVER SURRENDER!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, February 20
Not Feeling Too Bad Today
Not Feeling too bad, just woke up. Gotta take the lady into the city today for a doctors appt.
Well, didn't do Chemo yesterday, my blood count was too low. The Doc said we will wait a week and let my body recover. My regular doc wasn't there yesterday. He's on a cruise.....LOL. I think if he would have been there I would have done Chemo. No biggie for me, I don't have that dam pump on me, so that's good.
Like I said, I have been feeling ok the last week or so. The only thing that has really bothered me are my taste buds. I can't eat alot of stuff due to the metal/tin after taste. It tastes horrible. I get the after taste with everything I drink. Everything. My little fridge down here is filled with about 20 different drinks from soda to juice to gatoraid and everything I have tried so far gives me an aftertaste. It sucks, I am going to have to deal with it until I beat this beast I guess.
Well, I gotta work tonight. Not looking forward to it. I am going to have to run her ass to the city real quick then get home here and try to take a nap.
Well, that's if for whats going on around here. I'm gonna go see if I can scare up some breakfast.
NEVER GIVE UP!!!!!! NEVER SURRENDER!!!!!!!
Well, didn't do Chemo yesterday, my blood count was too low. The Doc said we will wait a week and let my body recover. My regular doc wasn't there yesterday. He's on a cruise.....LOL. I think if he would have been there I would have done Chemo. No biggie for me, I don't have that dam pump on me, so that's good.
Like I said, I have been feeling ok the last week or so. The only thing that has really bothered me are my taste buds. I can't eat alot of stuff due to the metal/tin after taste. It tastes horrible. I get the after taste with everything I drink. Everything. My little fridge down here is filled with about 20 different drinks from soda to juice to gatoraid and everything I have tried so far gives me an aftertaste. It sucks, I am going to have to deal with it until I beat this beast I guess.
Well, I gotta work tonight. Not looking forward to it. I am going to have to run her ass to the city real quick then get home here and try to take a nap.
Well, that's if for whats going on around here. I'm gonna go see if I can scare up some breakfast.
NEVER GIVE UP!!!!!! NEVER SURRENDER!!!!!!!
Monday, February 18
Still Here
Still here. Not feeling to bad today. I got some sleep. Slept all night, got up to eat breakfast this morning at 6 and went back to bed. Ended getting up at 2. So, I got some sleep. The lady is still in bed, she ain't feeling that well I think. She has been worried about the kids. I told her not to let the bitch win, that's what the bitch wants.....but, it's hard for her. She cares deeply for those kids, and I don't blame her.
It looks as if we are going to have to take the bitch to court. Oh well. I don't care, we are gonna make that bitch pay the court costs and our lawyer fees. If it wasn't for her being a bitch, we would not have to go to court. We are gonna wait a little while, let her waste all of her tax money. That's evil, I know, but this bitch deserves it. We have a real solid case. The lady has a voice mail where the bitch says, "you or Joe, are never going to see these kids again" BTW, Joe is the jailbird father/husband.
I'm telling ya, this guy is a fucking idiot. He is worried about his paints and crap, because he is planning on selling paintings when he gets out......LOL. What a fucking stupid ass. He needs to get a real fucking job.....something this guy has never had and he is in his mid 30's I believe. He has never had a job, never. No wonder his bitch wife left him. If I was her, I wouldn't put up with the bum either.
Like I said, I'm feeling pretty good today. Don't know if 'm going to work tonight, I have chemo tomorrow at 8 am. That takes all day and then I'm pretty much toast when I get home. They have a bed in there so I can lay down and take a nap if I want. I just might do that.
Well, the lady's up. Gonna go see how she feels.
It looks as if we are going to have to take the bitch to court. Oh well. I don't care, we are gonna make that bitch pay the court costs and our lawyer fees. If it wasn't for her being a bitch, we would not have to go to court. We are gonna wait a little while, let her waste all of her tax money. That's evil, I know, but this bitch deserves it. We have a real solid case. The lady has a voice mail where the bitch says, "you or Joe, are never going to see these kids again" BTW, Joe is the jailbird father/husband.
I'm telling ya, this guy is a fucking idiot. He is worried about his paints and crap, because he is planning on selling paintings when he gets out......LOL. What a fucking stupid ass. He needs to get a real fucking job.....something this guy has never had and he is in his mid 30's I believe. He has never had a job, never. No wonder his bitch wife left him. If I was her, I wouldn't put up with the bum either.
Like I said, I'm feeling pretty good today. Don't know if 'm going to work tonight, I have chemo tomorrow at 8 am. That takes all day and then I'm pretty much toast when I get home. They have a bed in there so I can lay down and take a nap if I want. I just might do that.
Well, the lady's up. Gonna go see how she feels.
Tuesday, February 12
Same Same
Things are going ok. I feel fine, just tired as hell. Been sleeping a lot today and yesterday. I feel good actually, have the sniffles, but I've had those for awhile.
Well the bitch has stepped up and decided that she is going to be a mother to her children. She is not bringing the kids back here to live. We are going to get them on the weekends, which is how it should be. It don't bother me that much, I do miss the little baby, but we will see her come the weekend. Don't know what made the bitch change her mind. It's not that she missed her kids, hell she rarely came and got them. She didn't even come see her baby when it was her first birthday. I'm sure she has something planned. She did not take them kids back because she wanted them around her. There's a reason, it's probably got something to do with getting support money or something like that. I know money is in there somewhere. She is a greedy bitch. I don't care. That's less I have to worry about. The 8yr old knows that grandma and grandpa are here if he needs us. We ain't going anywhere. Those kids are always going to have a loving stable home as long as I'm alive. Period.
Took the lady to Chilli's the other night for dinner. For the price, I was not impressed. I had the steak and rib combo, Memphis dry rub on the ribs. They were good, nice and tender. I should have gotten wet BBQ sauce. The ribs were dry as a bone. They screwed up on my steak. I wanted it cooked medium rare. It came out burned to crisp and tough as shoe leather. I sent it back. I wasn't gonna pay for that shit. The wife had a full rack of ribs, they used the wrong sauce on hers and had to bring her another rack. They have these electronic touch screens there where you can play games for a price and view menu items and crap. You can also order desert. My wife wanted some desert, we ordered it on that electronic thingy. 10 minutes later she gets it. Talk about a wait. The waitress in back doing that thing gave my wifes desert to 2 different people that ordered the same thing. They jumped the line so to speak. I paid the bill through that thing as well. Kinda neat. I gave the waiter a 10 spot for a tip, he did a great job. He is the one who pointed out my steak, and was very apologetic even though it was not his fault. He offered to have the mgr adjust to bill to reflect our problems, I declined. I was satisfied, my wife was satisfied. I'm not a moocher. I pay for what I get. He did good with taking the food back and getting us new stuff, I'm sure the cook was maybe a little hard on him. He offered to have the bill looked at......no need. The waiter and the place did a good job. I'm more impressed with the customer service than the food. We will be going back one day.
I'm getting the regular ribs next time.....LOL. My wifes first set looked delicious.
Well the bitch has stepped up and decided that she is going to be a mother to her children. She is not bringing the kids back here to live. We are going to get them on the weekends, which is how it should be. It don't bother me that much, I do miss the little baby, but we will see her come the weekend. Don't know what made the bitch change her mind. It's not that she missed her kids, hell she rarely came and got them. She didn't even come see her baby when it was her first birthday. I'm sure she has something planned. She did not take them kids back because she wanted them around her. There's a reason, it's probably got something to do with getting support money or something like that. I know money is in there somewhere. She is a greedy bitch. I don't care. That's less I have to worry about. The 8yr old knows that grandma and grandpa are here if he needs us. We ain't going anywhere. Those kids are always going to have a loving stable home as long as I'm alive. Period.
Took the lady to Chilli's the other night for dinner. For the price, I was not impressed. I had the steak and rib combo, Memphis dry rub on the ribs. They were good, nice and tender. I should have gotten wet BBQ sauce. The ribs were dry as a bone. They screwed up on my steak. I wanted it cooked medium rare. It came out burned to crisp and tough as shoe leather. I sent it back. I wasn't gonna pay for that shit. The wife had a full rack of ribs, they used the wrong sauce on hers and had to bring her another rack. They have these electronic touch screens there where you can play games for a price and view menu items and crap. You can also order desert. My wife wanted some desert, we ordered it on that electronic thingy. 10 minutes later she gets it. Talk about a wait. The waitress in back doing that thing gave my wifes desert to 2 different people that ordered the same thing. They jumped the line so to speak. I paid the bill through that thing as well. Kinda neat. I gave the waiter a 10 spot for a tip, he did a great job. He is the one who pointed out my steak, and was very apologetic even though it was not his fault. He offered to have the mgr adjust to bill to reflect our problems, I declined. I was satisfied, my wife was satisfied. I'm not a moocher. I pay for what I get. He did good with taking the food back and getting us new stuff, I'm sure the cook was maybe a little hard on him. He offered to have the bill looked at......no need. The waiter and the place did a good job. I'm more impressed with the customer service than the food. We will be going back one day.
I'm getting the regular ribs next time.....LOL. My wifes first set looked delicious.
Wednesday, February 6
Chemo Went OK
Chemo went ok yesterday. Boring as hell, but it was alright. Now I"m lugging this pump around with me for the next 2 days.
Went to the 8yr olds basketball practice last night. The bitch was there. She has changed her tune.I figured that would happen, just not this soon. She has had to wake the kid up and get him ready for school. I knew that would not go over to well. She has also realized that she would need to take the kids to see their father in the clink. Now, he's in the local jail now, but, he's gotta serve 8 years. I don't know if he will be able to do that in the jail that he is in or send him to prison. If they send him to prison, it better be close, if not he ain't getting no regular visits from his kids. I ain't gonna drive 100-200 miles each week. Maybe once a month, that"s it.
It's still not set in stone if the kids are moving back here or not. The lady has to call the bitch tonight. I'm pretty much figuring that they are.
I liked watching the kid practice. It was fun watching a bunch of 8 yr old kids run around not knowing what the fuck they were doing.....LOL. The bitch sat behind us on the bleachers and she had the baby with her. I turned around and smiled at the baby and that little cuties face just lit right up. She smiled really big and reached her arms out for me to take her, but I did not.
Those 2 kids deserve better than what they got. I have a really good idea the bitch is going to bring them back.
Hope so, I miss having them around. Especially the little baby.
Went to the 8yr olds basketball practice last night. The bitch was there. She has changed her tune.I figured that would happen, just not this soon. She has had to wake the kid up and get him ready for school. I knew that would not go over to well. She has also realized that she would need to take the kids to see their father in the clink. Now, he's in the local jail now, but, he's gotta serve 8 years. I don't know if he will be able to do that in the jail that he is in or send him to prison. If they send him to prison, it better be close, if not he ain't getting no regular visits from his kids. I ain't gonna drive 100-200 miles each week. Maybe once a month, that"s it.
It's still not set in stone if the kids are moving back here or not. The lady has to call the bitch tonight. I'm pretty much figuring that they are.
I liked watching the kid practice. It was fun watching a bunch of 8 yr old kids run around not knowing what the fuck they were doing.....LOL. The bitch sat behind us on the bleachers and she had the baby with her. I turned around and smiled at the baby and that little cuties face just lit right up. She smiled really big and reached her arms out for me to take her, but I did not.
Those 2 kids deserve better than what they got. I have a really good idea the bitch is going to bring them back.
Hope so, I miss having them around. Especially the little baby.
Tuesday, February 5
Chemo Today
Doing ok today. Kinda tired, I have been up all night, but I slept all day yesterday. So, it evens out I think. I goto Chemo today, so I am hoping I get a room with a bed so I will be able to take a nap if I get too tired.
Well, the lady and the bitch had it out a couple days ago. I don't know what was said or anything, I was sleeping, but she came over and got the kids. She has had the kids now for 3 days. That's the longest she has had them since this thing started.
The lady talked to her yesterday I guess and she said she is keeping them. Well, that's good. They are her kids, she should take care of them. My lady and I are a little worried though that they will be mistreated. This bitch is only taking her kids to make my lady sad, that's it. It's not because she misses them or wants to be with them. That's fucked. This stupid bitch I guess told my lady that she had retained a lawyer and he told her that a grandparent does not have any rights to visitation or anything in this state. Ha, I hope she didn't pay that lawyer a lot because he does not know what the fuck he's saying. LOL.
The 8 yr. old has a basketball game tonight we plan on going to, if she takes him we will see her there and I'll ask if we can get the kids on the weekends. If this chick tries to prevent my lady from seeing her grand kids, she better be prepared to fight. I'll hit her with a court summons quicker than she can say I'm a slut. Period.
It only takes about 250 bucks to get a family attorney on retainer. That ain't crap. I'll pay it, take that bitch to court and make her let my lady see her grand kids. The fucking bitch.
I think this all boils down to, who can claim those kids on their taxes......LOL. That's it. I told the lady a few weeks ago, I could care less where that fucking money goes as long as it don't go to the bitch. Period. I mean come on, 1800 bucks. I think that's what the deduction is. Put 2 innocent kids through a world of pain and up end their world, pull them out of a stable home and basically scare the shit out of them all for 1800 lousy dollars. What a low class, fucking bitch. I always said you could take the bitch out of scum town, but she is still gonna be a scum bitch, simple as that.
I don't know how this is going to pan out actually. I am worried that she is going to mistreat and neglect those kids. But, the 8yr old ain't no dummy. We told him if he ever wanted to come to our house or see us to just call and we would be there or call the police. So........we will see I'll guess.
I just like the fact the fucking bitch is finally taking care of her own dam kids. If find out though that she is allowing just anybody to watch them while she is at work, some bum off of the street or drug user or anything and something happens to them........oh mama. I'll sue her ass in civil court for thousands, or make sure she goes to jail for child endangerment.
Nothing Better Happen To Those Kids.
Well, the lady and the bitch had it out a couple days ago. I don't know what was said or anything, I was sleeping, but she came over and got the kids. She has had the kids now for 3 days. That's the longest she has had them since this thing started.
The lady talked to her yesterday I guess and she said she is keeping them. Well, that's good. They are her kids, she should take care of them. My lady and I are a little worried though that they will be mistreated. This bitch is only taking her kids to make my lady sad, that's it. It's not because she misses them or wants to be with them. That's fucked. This stupid bitch I guess told my lady that she had retained a lawyer and he told her that a grandparent does not have any rights to visitation or anything in this state. Ha, I hope she didn't pay that lawyer a lot because he does not know what the fuck he's saying. LOL.
The 8 yr. old has a basketball game tonight we plan on going to, if she takes him we will see her there and I'll ask if we can get the kids on the weekends. If this chick tries to prevent my lady from seeing her grand kids, she better be prepared to fight. I'll hit her with a court summons quicker than she can say I'm a slut. Period.
It only takes about 250 bucks to get a family attorney on retainer. That ain't crap. I'll pay it, take that bitch to court and make her let my lady see her grand kids. The fucking bitch.
I think this all boils down to, who can claim those kids on their taxes......LOL. That's it. I told the lady a few weeks ago, I could care less where that fucking money goes as long as it don't go to the bitch. Period. I mean come on, 1800 bucks. I think that's what the deduction is. Put 2 innocent kids through a world of pain and up end their world, pull them out of a stable home and basically scare the shit out of them all for 1800 lousy dollars. What a low class, fucking bitch. I always said you could take the bitch out of scum town, but she is still gonna be a scum bitch, simple as that.
I don't know how this is going to pan out actually. I am worried that she is going to mistreat and neglect those kids. But, the 8yr old ain't no dummy. We told him if he ever wanted to come to our house or see us to just call and we would be there or call the police. So........we will see I'll guess.
I just like the fact the fucking bitch is finally taking care of her own dam kids. If find out though that she is allowing just anybody to watch them while she is at work, some bum off of the street or drug user or anything and something happens to them........oh mama. I'll sue her ass in civil court for thousands, or make sure she goes to jail for child endangerment.
Nothing Better Happen To Those Kids.
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